I haven’t been on this blog in so long but I’m almost 17 now, not 15 as I was when I left it. And I would like people to know that I’m better, I am so much better than I was two or three years ago. I may not be completely healed or even doing very good right now, but I want to live. I don’t wake up wishing I hadn’t, anymore. Even though I miss it I don’t cut or hurt myself, other than having some problems with eating sometimes. I have a lot of regrets because I think I could have saved myself a lot of pain but I was too scared and too scarred to do it, and that still haunts me. I struggle, some days a lot, because I’m still angry, so very angry, but I can’t figure out who I’m supposed to be angry at. The one person I wanted to talk to isn’t relevant anymore, because it was a teacher at my old school and I don’t know if I would be able to bring it up on one of the rare occasions that we see each other. But I’m stronger now and I really think that I’m going to survive this and I also think that you will.
paige-chapter-book said: I saw your post that had the picture of where you cut and the lyrics from Stay Away From My Friends and I wanted to say that I'm the exact same. I don't cut but I feel the exact same way. And it's getting worse for me. I'm getting urges to cut again, I've been clean since January. I wanted to tell you you aren't alone. I would gladly talk to you sometime over text. I've never heard some one explain what I feel so on point.
I can’t tell when you sent this ask and I haven’t been on this blog in a long time, mainly because I started to feel better and I felt like seeing other people’s pain made it a lot harder to recover. But how are you doing today? For how long had you been clean when you sent this? I hope that you’re doing, if not good, then at least okay. Okay is all we need sometimes.